today, and tomorrow (rambling / fragmented notes)
sunday again. went to the beach to feel relaxed but instead I came back sunburnt and annoyed. the sea didn’t care. neither did i.
monday is already pacing in the hallway.
about my future- I’m still acting like the ground will fucking explode, open and suck me in if i mess up. like someone’s watching. weird how that stuck.
quick question: what does it even mean to deserve a place?
forgot what I was trying to prove but
starting tomorrow i’ll try to take care of myself. that’s all I’ve ever really had
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